These past few weeks have been kind of crazy for me! Just getting used to the idea of being pregnant has been a bit overwhelming. I'm excited... I'm nervous... I think I'm excited!
Physically, I've been feeling well for the most part. However, I think the hardest thing I deal with is food. My meal plans have just fallen to pieces. I feel like a bad person because I have produce that I haven't touched because of food aversions (aka tomatoes, clementines, and celery). "What do I eat? What do I want to eat? Nope I don't want that or that. Okay... mac and cheese again?" My cravings haven't been too bad to deal with (clam chowder or kimchi sound delicious), and I haven't had many cravings that I need to have every day, but it's when I don't feel like eating anything that gets me into trouble. For instance, in the mornings, I feel incredibly cautious, so I don't eat anything because I don't know what to eat. I think that I ended up throwing up the other morning because of this problem, so I guess I'll just have something on hand that I know I'll tolerate. Remembering BRAT (bananas, rice, apple/applesauce, and toast) has been really helpful in terms of keeping my stomach settled. I definitely eat a lot of rice and bananas, but not toast because the bread tastes funny...
The second hardest thing to deal with is smells. I recently went out with some friends, and as a couple of them were going to the bathroom I said, "The bathroom smells really weird just to let you know." They came back and they just laughed and said, "You just have a heightened sense of smell now that you are pregnant; the bathroom was fine." I hate the smells from my kitchen sometimes. My spice cabinet, kitchen sink, garbage can, and even the cupboard where I keep all my canned foods and stuff smell awful/funny. Baking soda and vinegar have been my friend.
Other than that, I've been sleeping a lot (the other night I slept for 12 hours), and I've been dealing with tender breasts and a very active bladder.
Emotionally, I have been happy and kind of worried, I guess. I worry about whether telling people so early was a good idea. Not that anything is wrong, but I just worry that things are too good to be true since we really want this baby. I've also been worried about my grandpa's health, and I want him to be healthy and strong. But I've also felt really grateful for the friends Greg and I have here because of all the support they've shown us especially after we told people we are expecting. Even though our family is far away, I've also felt like we are very supported, and I appreciate all their love.
Spiritually, I've just felt really wonderful lately. Rereading my patriarchal blessing after I found out that I was pregnant was reassuring, and just knowing that things will be okay has been a blessing. I feel blessed being pregnant, and initially I was scared that we wouldn't be financially okay with a baby, but we've been told by several people that they have baby stuff that we can use. General conference was amazing and uplifting because of all the counsel and advice for parents.
